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[Oct. 4th, 2005|07:45 pm] |
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| | Since you been gone//Kelly | ] |
Hey okay this makes a crap load of sense riight?...Me and Colby have been 'together' for about 2 months now right i mean we werent dating because of my parents but we mess around and are pretty much like dating well he recently started going to rustburg with Lisa, well he started talking to amanda jenkins and then saturday at some party that i didnt go to 'the only one' ERR he was drunk and asked her out and so now he has a g.f right well last night i met him and lisa at the mall and so we went to drop lisa off at her house and we were going to go bak to his house well my mom called so i went home. Well today after school he drops by my house and we made out and stuff, well then he told me we were going to watch a movie at his house later and i told him since he wasnt supposed to be at my house with no one here that he needed to leave well he called his g/f amanda and he went up there well he told me he would come pick me up at like 6 so i waited then 6:45 was here and still no COLBY so i called manda up and said hey wheres Colby and i told him he could come NOW and hes still not here lol....lisa called me a whore...im upset..really..i LOVE him..alot...but lisa's right all i am is a booty call and i let him treat me like it too..so now when he leaves amanda's in a min( he has to be gone by 8) hes gunna come by here and pick me up and im gunna be a whore..im soooo not doin it anymore EVER...RIGHT????...thats what i should do right?...LASt night we were in wal mart and 'Since you been gone' came on and he LAUGHED because its out relationship...'HERES THE THING WE STARTED OFF FRIENDS IT WAS COOL BUT IT WAS ALL PRETEND' HOW COME I NEVER HEAR YOU SAY I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU, I GUESS YOU NEVER FELT THAT WAY' 'I EVEN FELL FOR THAT STUPID LOVE SONG' thats just some of the lyrics that are me and him...he sang my fav song to me 'Must be doin something right' SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT TO DO? |
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[Sep. 14th, 2005|04:47 pm] |
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| | Behind these hazel eyes-Kelly | ] |
Seeing you it kills me NOW~~!
Ive been thinking about chris again i dont like him or anything just thinking back to what i used to be like and stuff and who i a now and who i wanted to be are totally different. Last night me and Lisa were in walmart picking out some birthday stuff for Colby, he turned 18 yesterday and i was looking down and i looked up and it was Colby and Ryan but thats not who i saw, i saw Chris and his best friend Nate, i could have sworn they looked exactly alike it was kinda scary and i just dropped or my heart...COLBY AND CHRIS look NOTHING alike Colby is fricken the hottest guy ever and Chris is ugly and dumb but it got me thinking what would i really do if i saw him and SArah together after he broke my heart again...would i EVEN talk to him...idk..i have found love and i kinda want to see him this weekend when im out with Colby and Lisa because i want to show him that hes not the only one who can be happy, i can be fricken happy too ya know????????????Last night after walmart we went to Colby's cryb then to his Papa's and i checked out his truck and stuff lol..tooo awesome..but Ryan kills me he is always trying to make himself look better than Colby and i hate to tell Ryan but ill drop kick his tale if he trys anything with me EVER again..Colbys party is this weekend..yay!!!..whoo and i get to spend the niight with Lisa for the first time in almost 2 weeks, FREAK OUT, lol. . . anyways i feel better now that i vented about it all but i specially love Lisa and Colby when i get my pictures ill put em up..colby's HOT! lmao!! |
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[Sep. 7th, 2005|04:15 pm] |
WOW the past month has been the best hangin with Lisa, shes soo awesome shes my new bestfriend but Colby's been pretty cool too as you can prolly tell i kinda like him but today i was kinda spontainious and i thought i could go through with bein with someone else but when he touched my arm or tickled me or anything i just went off and i kept thinking only Colby should touch me like that or at all...im so confused i mean were just friends and i know that but still something inside keeps telling me 'hey Colbys here today make the most of it' but i dont know what to do and plus alot of stuff could happen between that whole today situation. Am i talking out of my head?. YES. I know i am and i cant help it im soo tired..:D but its okay because it took me 16 fricken years to find happiness and feel like i belong and its finally here im so happy i would give anything to stay like this, but its about to come crashing down i can feel it 'knock on wood' but its okay i guess..:( i gotta go...imma look up something lol...buh-bye <3
Lyndsi |
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